To My Little Brother / Ricki Suarez (Your Big Sister )
My Nino. Aiden jus started saying your name and he recognizes pictures of you, that made me so happy. So im hoping that means he can see you watching over us. Sometimes i feel like im all alone without you here with me, we were the big brother and sister. We were the oldest. I have more memories of you then D'Angelo or Aleesa do and i will treasure them for the rest of my life. You taught me so much Nino. That last week you were with us all i wanted was for you to stay with me, i wasn't ready for you to leave me. I remember when it was just me, you, and mama. Now that your gone i feel like you left me to take care of mama by myself, even though it wasn't just us three anymore. The day of your funeral i didn't want them to close your casket, i stared at you for as long as i could when aunt misty and daddy were trying to make my walk away with tears falling down my face because i knew once they closed it, i would never get to see my little brother again. I wish you didnt have to go. I miss you more then words could explain. I try so hard to keep my feelings and thoughts inside because i try to be strong.....like you were and like mama is. Even though im sitting in your room alone with tears filling my eyes, I refuse to left myself break down. It makes me so mad that some people like cousins we never even met before try to say they miss you when they didn't even know you, when they don't even hurt they way that we do, When they never loved you the way that we do. I wish i could see you walking and talking in heaven with your new wings. You always were the angel in the family, now you are the angel watching over our family. Come see us in our dreams soon. I love you with all my heart Nino boy.
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